Fear

I feared.
I fear of anything that I wanted to do.
I fear that I am going to fail the things that I wanted to do.
I fear that it is going to embarrass myself when I fail to do things.
I fear that I am going to lose myself, if I tried too hard.
I fear that I am being too strong.

Why fear?
Just do it
Stand up again, if failed
Everyone struggles, nothing is embarrassing.
Your decision is your thoughts, and it represents you.
Your thought will not let you loose yourself.
Being strong will make you fly.

Confusion
Why cannot I decide things?
Why I have to stress myself out and decide something that I do not want?
Just be you.
You are tripping by fear, and watching people rise.

Why are you so weak in character;
Be strong, but not be self centered.
Despot is nothing but another fear from yourself.

The fear virtually, make you did a lot of things.
However, in reality, you did nothing but think through.

Just try more, focus more, and stay real. It is simple as that.

In Guilt

Blaming whom, I presume

Condemn the fact that I assume

with the word I used 

with the call she refused

Speaks 

harshly, break the heart that is soft

with no intention

but it caused laceration 

In guilt

Why am I so dumb that never thought of this

Consequence that break things in pieces

Fire that would continuously burn 

hearts would keeping wound 

both tear flooded 

Rain that continuously pouring

Eyes and mind that keeps drowning

forget about the forgiving

Both heart questioned 

Both mind exhausted

--Draft on July15, 2015